Hello all! It's 12:12 at night and I'm extremely bored. I mostly update Facebook, but I shall update here. I got a Koi fish! His name is Kamikaze because he's nucking futs, people.
Anyway, working at Sally Beauty in Butler, enjoying life one step at a time, hope you all are doing the same.
I have a raging UTI.
I work at a large corporation (no longer that other shit-ville place, but I have feeling this will be shitty, too).
I am trying to start a business of my own.
I am still attempting to make it in the writing/singing business.
AND I'm doing some research on plus-size heroes, but I'm finding nothing.
So that's what's up with me. Give me a holler.
It promotes healthy figures, and has a lot of fun to it on myspace. It's basically a fat blog for myself to accept myself for who I am and not what size I am.
This is my Christmas post. Merry Christmas.
Favorite Food: Fudge
Favorite Movie: Elf
Favorite Cat: Apollo!
Favorite Show: Heroes (but there was no Christmas special ;( )
Favorite Place: Home
Favorite Holiday: Halloween
Favorite Gift: My manager gave me an oil lamp, I like her now.
Favorite Chicken: Henley, who I've named since I hit him/her/it with my car and he/she/it survived!
So in the 'what do you have to say' section of lj they asked 'what literary character changed you in some way'. Out of all the books, comics, short stories, and poems I've read I'd have to say Beatrice Rappaccini from Rappaccini's Daughter written by Nathaniel Hawthorne in 1844.
Why Beatrice? Because she was beautiful, kind, and because of both of those things she succumbed to death. She is a beautiful soul trapped in a cold, hard world where her father makes her into some kind of poisonous plant-like creature and gives her a mate. I love it because underneath the kind hearted, beautiful exterior there is something far more dangerous in the girl.
The whole concept of the story is fantastic, being an allegory of the divine comedy and the garden of eden. Didn't I just sound so smart there?
Anyway, thank you wikipedia.
So what was yours?
1 HOUR AGO: Talking to Jess about shit that went down at work.
1 YEAR AGO: I was in beauty school being Gem for Halloween!
I HURT: in my jaw and my foot.
I LOVE: myself.
I HATE: my boss.
I FEAR: being a nobody.
I HOPE: that there's more for me out there.
I FEEL: as if i'm numb.
I HIDE: in my room.
I DRIVE: at 85 mph down 28.
I MISS: ghost hunting with Courtney and Sarah. LOL. Reuben's Grave. Good times, good times.
I LEARNED: that nothing in life is fair.
I NEED: a cigarette.
I THINK: my boss is a big fat, lazy bitch who never stops complaining and won't put her money where her mouth is.
Port, Sherry, Whiskey, and Rum
Oh what valiant fun, fun, fun!
Listen to that sound! Do you hear it? Yes, it's blackberry wine and cigarettes and the Chieftans' MacAllistrum's March! Dance to it! Sing to it! Breathe to it! Just do it!
Anyway, just dropping by to give everyone a line to show them that I am truly not dead. And I'm listening to rather sophisticated music.
Hope everyone's doing great, because guess what else? I go to school tuesday through friday 9-3:30. So my summer is basically shot. But I guess that's my fault.
Anyway, we need a movie crew, we need a graveyard visit, and etc. Love you guys!
So I know I usually just pop in to give everyone a lift, that's my job. And you all know it's from the heart, because I would not say it if it wasn't. Right now I need a lift.
What happened to my confidence? What happened to me? I care about me more than other people half the time. I have no compassion. I have no...feelings. I'm on pills for depression and every few months the pills stop working so I have to switch to a newer pill. I feel worthless, like I can't even help myself. And why am I telling you guys this? I don't know. I just needed to vent. There's a helluva lot more I could say, but I won't for the sake of sanity. I just can't put things into words right now, everything hurts so much that I've gone numb. NUMB.
But otherwise, I'm so happy for and proud of all my friends (you guys). I wish you all the best in the world and want you to succeed in everything you do.
Damn you Alejandro Sanz for making me a sappy bitch!
So I went to see 300.
It fucking rocked.
x10.
I fucking loved it.
Anyway, my feet are cold.
Anyway, school's so damn boring. All I do is stand around and watch people doing things, it's awful. Stupid and awful. Oh well, I paid for it so I guess six more months of this can't be all that bad.
Guess what? I'm going back to cosmo school to be a friggin teacher! KICKIN ASS!
I haven't even had time to keep up with everyone, like usual. In fact, it sucks that I'm so out of touch. Anyway, just saying I'm back and I love you guys.
All right, I'm going to watch the hunger teen aqua squad I taped, so it'd better be as good and not a repeat. But if Carl's in it'll be okay.
I know what you guys are thinking. Believe me, I know! I know like George Bush knows terrorists! I can see into your thoughts. You wanna know what you're thinking? Well I'll tell you: "she's made two posts in a row?! WTF!!!"
Am I right? I fucking thought so.
So, I watched Judge Dredd today and laughed my ass off while putting acrylic nails on my little cousin Theresa (she's 17). She didn't understand Sly Stallon (aka the 'Italian Stallion'), Armand Assante (aka the 'worst Odysseus ever'), and Diane Lane (aka 'can't act worth shit') were so hilarious to me. Further I note: Judge Dredd could possibly be a number one movie crew movie. Laces out, that's how sure I am. The best part in that movie was that guy who's name escapes me, but he played Deuce Bigalow. Oh and the supremely horrible effects. That's not saying much.
Then a good, well scripted, semi-well acted movie came on, called the Devil's Advocate, and all said horrifying movie experiences were rectified. Somewhat. Just hearing Al Pacino describing God as an 'absentee landlord' is enough for me.
Watching Judge Dredd is like a horrifically large bowel movement. You're ass is throbbing so you finally go to shit and it's painful at first, then you just let it slide, and finally, when it's over, you're pretty relieved. Despite the stretching of the rectum and some unused anal muscles, everything will be all right again in due time. As the bible says 'And this shall pass, too.'
Enjoy.
